Lose Yourself
Mar 27, 2004
I put on headphones and immediately lose myself, usually to the past, sometimes to a blurry future. But always the present fades away and I can see beyond or behind, through and over.
Its been time still. Time since I last slipped into a CD and walked in another world while the crowd passed me by. Time since I stepped out of my life.
Im waiting at a bus stand and its dark and Im frustrated. Its been a long day and Ive been waiting for too long. Theres a chubby pasty girl sitting in the bus shelter listening to her music and her lips move languidly in time with the beat.
Something dead in her face, in the blankness of her gaze, in the way her mouth contracts. Something in me steps back, to ponder, to shudder, to reminisce.
The thought that one sentence repeated over and over in my head alone to a beat only my heart breathes to could colour my world. Something dangerous in that.
Because I know best how easily I lose myself to a voice and a beat.
And there is magic now, under blood red trees. [+]
2 Responses to “Lose Yourself”
1 Goldi Mar 28, 2004
Interesting. So I’m not the only one who does this sort of thing. I needed some variety though, so I bought a stolen MD player. A CD was too flimsy (and couldn’t hold enough ‘mood’ changes) Not enough tracks.
2 phathima Mar 28, 2004
you bought a stolen md player…
seems to kill the concept. why not just steal one yourself…?
and see the thing about CD players are that they’re easier to share. i had this one rocker friend who got an MD player, so he was useless. but rockers with CD players aren’t so bad, cuz i just forcibly take their CD players and play my own CDs. :D
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